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i'm so tired
01:22
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i’m so tired of writing songs
i’m so tired of being strung along
i’m so tired of your inspiration
i’m so tired of remembering our late-night conversations
and what you said
i’m so tired i can’t get out of bed
i’m so tired i can’t sleep at night
i’m so tired of remembering the parts of you i like
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2. |
if i could change it all
01:16
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if i could change it all
i wouldn’t change a thing
i used to do it all
now all i do is
sing and play the night away
and drink a lot until i’m not so sure
that i ain’t wasting time
but even so
if i could change it all
i wouldn’t even try
not worried for the fall
for the first time in my
life i’m fine with drinking wine
and now i dare to let my hair grow long
but not too long, of course
but even so
if i could change it all
i wouldn’t change a thing
if i could change it all
i wouldn’t change a thing
if i could change it all
i wouldn’t change a thing
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3. |
sundays
01:44
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Sundays
i wake up and go to work
Sundays
used to be i’d go to church
Sundays
waste away the afternoon
Sundays
are the days i reminisce
over you
some days
i am lost and overcome
Sundays
spending hours in the sun
someday
you’ll be one more memory
Sundays
are the days i think of you
and me
you and me
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4. |
some of this
01:39
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some of this is your fault
some of this is mine
most of this is nobody’s
or is it all in my mind?
fighting on the back porch
fighting on the phone
fighting in the coffee shop
crying, running home
and somehow
i wondered how your mother is the other day
and somehow
i hope that everything’s OK
some of this is your fault
some of this is mine
most of this is nobody’s
or is it all in my mind?
some of this is your fault
some of this is mine
most of this is nobody’s
so let’s just give it time
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5. |
headlights
02:19
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once upon a time
i crossed the street at night
and waited for the headlights to swallow me
once upon a time
i crossed the street at night
and waited for the headlights to swallow me
once upon a time
i crossed the street at night
and waited for the headlights to swallow me
once upon a time
i crossed the street at night
and waited for the headlights
to swallow me
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6. |
probably someday
02:09
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maybe one day
you won’t want to hear this song
and i won’t want to play it
but for now
i will write just what i feel
and come right out and say it:
you make me laugh and sigh and sing
and crinkle up the corners of my mouth
and when you hear me sing this song
you know for sure that you’re who it’s about
probably someday
i will look back on this song
and try my best to hate it
but until then
i will sing it without fear
as though it were the greatest
you’re warm and calm and sweet and kind
and sad sometimes, but you know that’s OK
and even when what we have ends
i’ll think of you and smile as i play
maybe one day
you won’t want to hear this song
and i won’t want to play it
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7. |
happy birthday
02:36
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cleaning my room
i found the card you made for me
drawings you made
and all the things you said to me
happy birthday
i love you
so much
i never did
tell you how much it meant to me
couldn’t throw out
my one remaining memory
happy birthday
i love you
so much
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8. |
last summer
01:22
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i spent last summer
at my grandma’s house
we lived together
day in and day out
i drove to work
on the other side of town
she picked me up
when i was feeling down
i slept last autumn
on my roommates’ couch
i had no bed and
so i did without
my girlfriend said that
i should get some help
i didn’t know how
to take care of myself
i’ll spend this summer
sleeping in my bed
writing each thought that
pops into my head
although i can’t go
back to my old house
because last summer
my father kicked me out
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9. |
the envelope song
01:29
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i could make the best of a bad situation
or i could up and go
i could live a lie for a longer time
or i could let you know
the things that i’ve wanted to tell you
believe me, some are unkind
but, truthfully, only sometimes
do you ever cross my mind
i could give it up and cut my losses
or try to explain
i could say you won and hold my tongue
or i could still complain
the things that i’ve wanted to tell you
you never did allow
but now i’m beginning to realize
i’ll never get through to you anyhow
anyhow, anyhow, anyhow, no way no how
i could make the best of a bad situation
or i could up and go
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10. |
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i don’t wanna go outside
‘cause i’m too tired
and it’s too bright
i don’t wanna go outside
‘cause i don’t like
feeling so shy
no, i don’t wanna go outside
no, i don’t wanna go outside
no, i don’t wanna go outside today
i’m happy to stay here
and while my hours away
i don’t wanna go outside
‘cause the sunlight
hurts my eyes
i don’t wanna go outside
‘cause without you
i cry
no, i don’t wanna go outside
no, i don’t wanna go outside
no, i don’t wanna go outside until
the day that you get here
i promise you i
will
i will
i will
i will
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11. |
iron and wine
01:45
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woke up by your side
we lay there for a long, long time
your face so close to mine
we were listening to iron & wine
“such great heights”
you closed your eyes
except for when the chorus came around
then you’d open them and smile
that was when i realized
that i don’t want to leave your side
for a long, long time
and you held me and i cried
and i cried
and i cried
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12. |
on the lake
01:33
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on the lake in kayaks
down the run we go
as the sun is setting
over ohio
on the lake in kayaks
row, my brothers row
on the lake in the summer
deep in ohio
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13. |
strouds run
01:26
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[instrumental]
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14. |
hudson
02:25
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you cried when i got there
you cried when i left
i guess that’s something
i’ll never forget
you were happy to see me
and sad i was gone
i stayed up driving
the two hours back home
i traveled to see you
‘cause you couldn’t drive
left at eight in the morning
and then ten at night
thinking about you now
makes me so sad
‘cause all through that summer
you were all that i had
now i’ve a new love
a new place to live
they both make me happier
than you ever did
but still i remember
you cried when i left
i guess that’s something
i’ll never
never forget
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15. |
mother's day
02:04
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why did you move my mother’s bed
into the basement
on mother’s day?
why did you not hear what we said
asking you not to
on mother’s day?
why did you make my brother cry?
why did you make my sisters shout?
why did you make my mother cry?
why did you make me leave the house?
why did you come back to our home
and make my brother
feel afraid?
why did you try to work things out
and force my family
to move away?
why did you shun your daughters’ words?
why did you disappoint your sons?
why did you let your partner hurt?
why did you put us on the run?
and how can you drive your family away?
how can you make your loved ones cry?
how can you just sit there and pray?
how can you make me want to die?
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16. |
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i never meant to hurt no one, but
i was in love and i flew too close to the sun, so
i’ll pour myself another one, and
i’ll be careful, yes, i’ll be more careful
next time i’ll try to assert my independence
and not be so quick to lower my defenses
i’ve faced the consequences
now i’ll come to my senses somehow
but that would make me feel so glum, and
i’m told that i should loosen up and have some fun, so
i’ll pour myself yet another one, and
i’ll be careful, yes, i’ll be more careful
next time i’ll try not dodging all your glances
and not getting hung up on bitter circumstances
on you i’ll take my chances
and come to my senses somehow
yeah, yeah
but i’ll be careful
yes, i’ll be more careful
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17. |
if only you were in town
02:03
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sick of writing pop songs
and living in the daylight
sitting in a building
and suffering from bug bites
pizza night and x-files
is getting overrated
i could get some lunch now
but i already ate it
if only you were in town
we’d have so much fun
but you work at the pool
five days a week until the summer’s done
and so i’m on my own
work is really boring
and so is eating takeout
think i’m getting fatter
and i’m starting to break out
running out of money
i spent it all on dumb shit
summer plus depression
means i can’t really function
if only you were in town
we could spend our time
kissing all day in bed
and staying up all night
if only you were in town
but you live back home
so i’ll write you a bunch of songs
every now and then until the summer’s done
so i won’t feel alone
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18. |
from the top
01:49
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let’s start this from the top
yet again, you say it’s all off
proceed, go down the line
what the hell is wrong this time?
so long i’ve lived a lie
try to fix you, wonder why
darling, you want symmetry?
well, i’m afraid i disagree
i tried
living with it on my own
but i just can’t
pull myself together
i swear
if i can’t make it all alone
well, then, i’m lost
so let’s do this one more time from the top
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19. |
pretending
01:09
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wake up in the morning when it gets bright
sunlight feels so blinding
without my love i know it’s not right
i wish she were beside me
i want to sleep a little while longer
but my bed feels so empty
feeling so alone and touching myself
as i go on pretending
getting pretty tired and i could use a drink
and some time to myself
miss my medication, i get so afraid
for who can know what might help?
sometimes i wish that i was back home
and love was neverending, but
tomorrow i’ll awaken when it gets bright
and go right on pretending
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20. |
the toll
02:41
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something kept me up at night
tired of the day
hiding from the outside
i was sick and terrified
afraid to speak its name
for fear of what it sounds like
but when i lost my way
i had no choice but to accept it
and try to take control
i swear i’d die
before i’d let it take its toll
so i called her on the phone
and though we were in love
i told her it was over
spent a couple days at home
and when i’d had enough
and i felt so much older
i came back to this town
and tried to get myself together
and soon i was prescribed
with medication to make it better
and now i feel so strong
but when i see her i remember
when i was filled with holes
i swear i’ll die
before i let her take her toll
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peter vilardi Columbus, Ohio
musician, author, composer. some of this stuff is solo singer-songwriter material. the rest is my portfolio of soundtracks for independent films. either way, i hope you enjoy it!
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